Drifting to December

Wow, it's already December.  I'm not so sure how I feel about the approaching holidays.  The emptiness in my heart is more evident and Clarence is visiting me more often than before.  I've suffered through many things in my life and know that crying is good for me... a cleansing of sorts.  So each day I will wake up and go through the motions of my life. 

Most of the time I'm paying attention and other times I just fake it.  I know that as I continue to do this, there will be less faking and more living.  Until then, I'll try not to drift too far away.

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