28 Days


Four weeks ago, just 28 days...it still doesn't seem real.  I wonder how long it will be until I stop counting the days since my baby girl Haylee left us.  I am so sad.  I am in disbelief.  I keep thinking that she'll call me.

Big breath.

It is said that you can change your life in 28 days.  Mine has been at a standstill for the last four weeks.  Even though I know it's 'normal'.  I don't like feeling this way.  I have to find a way to turn my grief around into something positive for me.  I have to start caring for myself.  I have to start believing that I will have joy again.

...being aware of the problem is the first step.

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