Triggers


I try NOT to let it bother me, but for the past couple of weeks I've been seeing or following more and more Ford Focus' on my way to work.  ...Trigger...   So what happens in my brain when I see the word focus on the back of a car?  I lose my focus of driving!

I start thinking about Haylee. I start thinking about the irony of a person driving distracted, by texting on her phone, while in a car with the word focus on it.  Then I realize I'm distracted by this while driving to work and try to focus.

And then the entire sequence starts all over again.  I do not like triggers in my life.

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