Just 40 Days

I have to remind myself that I only get one body.  I do get two sets of teeth, but I used up the first one forty years ago. I am going to be 54 years old in 95 days.  It is my hope that at my annual physical, my doctor will be pleased with my weight and my blood work.  I hope that I am pleased with how I feel and look in my clothes. All's it takes is a little tlc.  Tender loving care for oneself is a great way to stay fit and feel well.  If you don't take care of yourself...who will?

Last night I arrived at the lake for a weekend of babysitting my granddaughter Skylar.  I haven't been to the lake for a month.  The first thing she did when she saw me was...frown.  She didn't know me. This made me frown a little too.  I found it interesting that no matter what I did, she avoided having eye contact with me. I can say that this morning she is back to normal and smiling at me.  She has grown so much...scooting and crawling everywhere!  Everyone is smiling now!

Every once in a while I go look back to read all the comments to this blog.  I want to say thank you for lifting my spirits through this journey.  They really help me feel like I am not alone. I find that most people don't know what to say to someone that has lost a child...myself included.  So instead of saying anything, they act as if it never happened.  I know that there are no words to make the loss seem less but I do know that there are words that can make a person feel loved.  A simple how are you doing? Or I've been praying for you will do.   Or just spending time with them will go a long way.

Have you ever tried to make sense of something that doesn't make sense?  Sometimes I speculate on the why things happen and sometimes there just isn't any good reason.  Sometimes, I just have to cry about it and move on.

T he feeling of being upset or annoyed, especially because of inability to change or achieve something...that's what I was feeling yesterday. Tuesdays are my long teaching days - I have six classes with no planning period...just a lunch break.  I'm always tired on Tuesdays.  The drive home from work via I475 north was better than the day before...more people on the road knew the meaning of merge so traffic flowed pretty well. (Merging into traffic...another topic for another day!) When I got home from work, I was feeling pretty good after my 10 minute cat nap. ( I love cat naps!)  Anyhow, then my phone rang.  As I listened to the person on the other end tell me what was going on in their life, my frustration began.  That call was interrupted by another call, where I was placed on hold and then disconnected. Shortly after that, I received a text from someone else stating how frustrated they were.  And lastly, another phone call that turned into a sho...

Justice - everyone seeks it.  Most are searching for understanding and peace.  Most forget that the world is not always fair or just.  Most of us forget that we are not in control.  God is in control.  This past week, one of the readings at Mass was about lawyers and judges and how Jesus had issues with them.  Merriam-Webster defines it as: the process or result of using laws to fairly judge and punish crimes and criminals.       For me, I just want peace of mind.  I want peace for my family who are suffering at the loss of Haylee and are searching for understanding.  I want peace for them so that they can begin to heal.  I wish for them to grow in understanding of life so that they can enjoy it again.

As a woman, my BMI is supposed be between 18-24.  My BMI is 34.  This means I'm no longer classified as overweight.  Now I'm moderately obese and one point away from being severely obese.  Obesity is an ugly word.  Although I don't feel very beautiful so perhaps it is appropriate.  I am so glad that I finally decided to stop the madness of gaining 10 pounds a year.  It doesn't sound like a lot; it's less than one pound a month, but gaining weight is not good for your soul or your health! Take time to take care of you today.  You only get one body!