Just 40 Days

As an adult, Christmas has not been my favorite time of year. It seemed to remind me of all I did not have. Somehow I managed to make the best of it and survived. That's just it, I've been surviving the holidays, not enjoying the holidays. I need to do a better job at living Christmas. Raised a Catholic, advent is no stranger to me. Or is it? What does advent mean? What is it to me? Advent is a time for reflection. It is a time to prepare. It is a time for prayer. With my new job, I have more time. I have less stress. What am I doing with this time? Today, I will take a serious look into my advent prayers. Prayers that I've fallen away from. Prayers for peace in our country. Prayers with hope for all good things. Prayers for love. Prayers to renew my faith in a loving God. Dear Jesus, As I enter the advent season, prepare in me a place for you. Use me to be evidence of your life. Use me to help others come to know you. I pray for my children, Derri...

I miss my sisters. Each and every one of them. I miss them dearly. Sisters are the first friends you have in life. They are it. I am the third of my family of eight. I am the second female. I had one older brother and sister and three little sisters followed by two little brothers that were born a decade after me. My parents had five girls! Oh my!

Today is the 40th day of making new habits about taking care of myself. I really don't know how I'm doing. Having broke my leg on day seven, just one week after deciding to make changes. I know that I've been eating better and am still 'dry' on the alcohol front. It's good that I can control what I put into my body as I can't really exercise. Unless you call crawling up and down the stairs exercise! I'm hoping my triceps will be spring ready with the dips I do as I push myself up the steps. I can't get on a scale to see if I lost weight. I know that I've lost all the muscle in my broken leg, so weight really doesn't matter at this point. How do I feel? I don't feel sluggish or bloated, so that's a good thing. I may be wearing jeans tomorrow, as my laundry basket is full of my stretch, sweat, or leisure clothes. So, time will tell - I will continue on my quest for another 40 days of taking care of me- my mind, my body and my sp...

Today I was able to get my 1st dose of the Pfizer - Covid 19 vaccine. Our county vaccinated 8,000 teachers in two days! It was very well run. I was in and out in less than 30 minutes including the 15 minute wait afterwards. It's been about five hours since and my arm is a bit sore now. I can't remember the last time I got a vaccine. Probably a tetnus shot. --- Those really hurt. Anyway, I'm glad to do my part to get this pandemic under control. As I look at my calorie tracker for the day: 1750 calories food and 59 oz. water.

I know we are in a pandemic and have be quarantining for 11 months now, but I have not left the house for 10 days! I have not driven in twelve. Will I remember how to drive? Have I gone this long before? I think I must have when I had surgeries in the past. Usually returning to the doctor a week later to be told what I can do. I look outside and the sun is shining on the blanket of white and it looks so beautiful. I wish I could go out in it. Soon...soon. As I look at my calorie tracker: 1334 calories food and 46 oz. water.

Well I'm back on the scooter I used for the two foot surgeries I had in 2016. It sure is better than the crutches! When I ring the bell I will think of the now retired librarian at our school who gave it to me five years ago. As I check my calorie tracker for today it states: 1694 calories food and 51 oz. water.