Just 40 Days

Since I haven't been sleeping well, I didn't make it to the YMCA on Thursday or Friday.  I used to feel really guilty about not doing cardio everyday.  Thankfully, I've grown out of that!  It's okay to 'just' take my dog for a walk.  Or 'just' walk a little extra at work or to count shopping as exercise! I have my strongest workouts on days when I haven't workout the day before.  Today was no different.  My cardio was really strong ... I even ran intervals for 10 minutes on the treadmill.  I also got a full circuit of weight training in. Rest is good for you!

So, as you all know I work in technology.  This week has been a week of hardware failure...actually just hardware glitches that made my work life a little busier than usual.  I was thinking of how much technology has changed over the years...and whether or not I think it is for the good.  And then I got this... She may be sick, but she's still happy!  Skylar at almost 1 year. Too cute right?  This picture made me think of myself in my 20's when my first born was one.  How much would my mom have enjoyed a photo like this?!  Technology is a wonderful thing...when it helps us share our lives.

Haylee's best friend Sarah stopped by to visit today.  It was good to see her and her beautiful daughters.  They played with Carly and exchanged info on their devices so that they can talk more.  Haylee and Sarah have been friends since their freshman year at Start high school.  I decided to give her Haylee's high school class ring.  I'm glad that she wanted it and  I hope that it brings her joy, remembering all the crazy things they did. Sarah brought pictures she found in an old disposable camera.  They were from five or so years ago when Haylee was living with me (again)!  There was a really nice one with my mom and Haylee.  Memories are good. 

It's a little after 5 in the morning and I've already had breakfast.  My alarm doesn't even go off until 5:30.  I've been awake since 4:18 and decided to just get up. I don't think it was something I ate, but it could have been as I did snack after 8 p.m. last night, but I did not sleep well.  Anxiety has been haunting me.  I have been so distracted.  I need to find my center.  I need my inner peace so that I can be one with my world. (Carly and I watched Kung Fu Panda 2 yesterday.) So here it is, twelve hours later and let me tell you what came today.  There was a beeping coming from the server room...a hard drive went down. Repairing it caused what seemed to be a lengthy interruption to Internet service (15 minutes downtime).  Several older wireless access points have been acting up so I considered adding similar guest access points to newer devices.  We had a fire drill...it's like 28 degrees...brrrr.   The good news is.....

I have got to believe that my innerself is telling me something good is going to happen because Lord knows, I don't want it to be anything less than good.  All that I know is that I've been stirring.  Perhaps it's the pressure I put on myself when I procrastinate.  (I've been putting off some things that have to do with Haylee's estate.)  Or perhaps, I'm excited that Justine got a better job than the great one she's had for the past year or so.  Or maybe, it's because I need to fix my car, start my taxes, finish end of the quarter things at work... or... anything else on my to do list. Whatever it is, I'd better figure it out soon as the anxiety I'm feeling is building and starting to affect my daily life in ways that are not good for me.    God, grant me the serenity, to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.

Something must be going on within me as I had a really good hour long cardio session at the YMCA tonight.  Lately, I only manage to get 30 minutes in but tonight, I pedaled for 30 and then went on an AMT for another, more intense 30 minutes.  I turned my music up loud, closed my eyes, and nearly cried as I took my body to near exhaustion.  The song I remember the most is "Whatever Gets You Through Today" or whatever gets you through the day.  (from a Grey's Anatomy soundtrack) I'm glad that I have a YMCA for exercise to help manage my stress.

I try not to have much to do on Sundays.  I'll admit, Mass, may or may not be on the list.  Most of the time I hear the Mass on TV at 11:30.  I went to bed at my my usual time around 10 pm. last night so I was fully rested by 7.  I decided to use the pie crust my brother Chuck left in my refrigerator at Christmas time.  So I made Quiche Florentine with eggs, coconut milk, spinach and green onion.  It was delicious! I headed to the YMCA for some cardio and strength training and spent ten minutes before and after in the sauna.  I love the sauna!  After tutoring for an hour, I was able to head home to relax.  It seems that all I've done since then is snack, drink tea, and watch TV.  I kind of feel lazy although, since I worked out today, I'll call it rest!